I thought I was making a good recovery. Then I discovered the anxiety attack.
My new boss sent me home today because me becoming upset had upset my colleagues and she feels I am not well enough yet to be back at work. My anxiety has been building since it snowed. As my boss correctly pointed out, last year we had bad weather but it did not provoke such a level of anxiety in me.
How I resolve this one, I don't know. I want to work, I was enjoying working, and I need to work. Yes, I am more emotional than usual. Yes I am less hardy than I maybe need to be, as yet. But like bereavement, I feel this situation can only be healed by time and by getting on with my life as best I am able meantime.
I was projecting this morning. I'm still projecting and awfulising. I am trying really hard to handle it though. Wish me luck.
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